Release me

I need an ugly cry.

The kind where you’re curled up in the shower, water flowing over your face, waving your metaphorical white flag. When you can’t hide the obvious sounds of emotion, and the hyperventilation sets in between deep breaths. When every emotion that’s been building explodes through your eyes…. and clenched hands.

The kind where you wake up in the morning, eyes swollen, head pounding. Where the comfort of the warm blankets over your head makes you feel safe, segregated from the world that you’re trying to escape.

It seems the times we need this type of pure release are the times when we just can’t allow it. The chaos around us forces us to remain sane. As sane as an insane chaos can be. No time to be weak, no time to let go. No moment of privacy to truly be who you need to be.

It’s at these times when I pray I can hold it in, but pray at the same time to find that release.

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About Krista

Livin the poor life with the typical american family; husband, baby, and dogs. Happy to tell it like it is, the ins and outs of being a young, hip mom can be more hilarious than one might think ;)
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4 Responses to Release me

  1. Beth Anne says:

    Yes ma’am. Completely understand.

  2. TheMHalf says:

    If it’s an ugly cry you need, then I hope you get it. When I need to ugly cry, I go for a hike, somewhere away from crowds. And I yell. If it’s too cold where you are to do that, I vote for the shower. My therapist once suggested I buy a plastic bat and use that to beat the hell out of my bed. Lots of anger release and no damage.

    I hope you find the peace you need – and soon.

  3. Sometimes, after a prolonged period of holding back, it just feels so good to cry it all out. I finally let go and bawled recently and afterward I felt the physical toll but the emotional release and it was just what I needed. I can so relate to this post.

  4. Sometimes a good ugly cry is unavoidable. Hope you’re feeling better.

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