Because that’s what I did… I GAINED weight. 1 lb to be exact. New weight, 172.6 lbs. Yet, strangely, I feel incredibly good about this week, have I lost my mind??? No seriously, I wonder. Last week I was DOWN 3 1/2 pounds, yet felt like I had failed. This week I gained a pound and feel like I’ve been successful. I suppose that is my crazy woman brain coming out, never sensical, always emotional.
I succeeded in ALL of my goals this week. I worked out FOUR times instead of the two I had set my target at. I did not eat ANY McDonalds, and I spent a lot more time filling my water bottle than any previous week. I maybe did not portion my meals as well as I had hoped, but I definitely ate “smaller” portions, just probably not as small as I should. But still, that was a baby step I was taking for the week, and I did work on it, so I feel that is a success. But it is not only meeting my goals that make me feel successful, it is my body image.
When I look in the mirror now I don’t hate what I see (as much). In fact, I’m starting to like it again. And my size 12 pants are starting to get big, in fact, they’re starting to look a little down-right thuggish. I still can’t even attempt to fit in any of my original size 10’s, but at least I know I’m moving in that direction, and I’m VERY happy to be in a 10. Sure, it’s not the size SIX I was in when I met Dave, or even the size 8 I was for most of our relationship, but at least I know when I was in a 10, I was happier with myself, and that is all I’m looking for. If I end up smaller, then that’s just a bonus 🙂
So, for this week, I’ll set 2 goals. 1.) Work out… amount? I’m not going to say, but as much as I can. I already know tonight I will be going to the gym, and I already know that Saturday I am going to relive my sexy attempt at Zumba, so there are 2 right there. In between I’ll invite Jillian back into my living room and we’ll do our usual 25 minutes of love/hate, and she won’t disappoint me. Goal 2.) PORTIONS. And maybe not have nachos for two meals. Or fried chicken (see previous post).
I’ll post a picture tonight as a part II because I did not have time yesterday after my 3 hours of sleep saturday night and my endless sunday of chores, part-time job, and entertaining guests.
AND…. Congrats to Blair!! You seriously look amazing, SERIOUSLY! I can’t imagine doing this without McFatty Monday and without your success to keep me motivated. THANK YOU!